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15 August 2011 @ 12:21 pm
All I know is what I want most of all is to know what I want  
I think I've fucked myself over yet again.

I have been planning on taking a semester-long paralegal course this autumn at UConn, Avery Point in Groton, but have sort of been overlooking the fact that it's a Connecticut-based program, and I don't know at all how much of what paralegals do is state-specific. Probably a fair amount, right? And, while I am PROBABLY giving too much emphasis on my desire to live in a city (by which I mean New York, Washington, Chicago, etc., not New Haven or Hartford), that is my official goal, and would taking such a course make it much easier to get out of the house? Not sure. But what other choice would I have, really? If I want to do something right now, it's not like I can take a course in New York (if for no other reason than I wouldn't have enough time to find a place to live, much less figure out the dozens of other things). I might end up doing a course at Roger Williams instead of the one at UConn, which is fine, but I just feel like I've dropped the ball again.

It's like there are two main goals--finding a career, and getting out of my mother's house, and I am not been making headway in either area, and while this will help me on one, and I guess even the other...I don't know, I guess I'm just too impatient and impractical and whiny to wait another (probably) 8 months to move out.

The other thing I know is that I'm 25, and in no way am I an adult.